2017 has got to be better than 2016, and I have to be better too. It’s been coming up in conversation quite frequently lately that I majored in English-Creative Writing in college. Strangely people seem excited to hear that and curious what kind of writing I’m doing now. Years of being made to feel foolish for going to school for writing have left me barely writing anything creatively. Unless you count trying to poetically formulate a referral I’m writing at work….
I became kind of bitter about writing after school ended, I never felt pushed hard enough or encouraged during my undergrad. The student loans hanging over my head like a dark black cloud of doom made me settle for the first job I could get and there was zero writing involved. I was reduced to asking “Chips, Bread or Apple for your side?” At 22 I wasn’t rushing home from work to get some writing done, I was rushing home to change and get to my second job, slinging coffee at a local coffee shop. After my second shift was over I was usually headed home to get just enough sleep to do it all again the next day, or indulging in $1 PBR night and trivia or Sunday Buckets of beer at the local watering hole.
For four years there wasn’t much time or energy to write. It was easier to make excuses than spend any energy putting words to paper. I kept playing music though, I never gave up on that for creative release. I even found a few people to play with me, adding a few sharks to Baby Shark. It never felt like a job playing shows and we even made a few bucks(like maybe $27) here and there and there were plenty of free drinks. Once I knew my way around Rochester I was quite the social butterfly, so in-between working a lot and going out I wasn’t really home much to dedicate my time to writing.
In 2013 I moved to the Buffalo area. According to a post I had moved from the 4th worst city to the 3rd worst city(the original article has been updated but Buffalo still makes the cut). I didn’t know anyone here except my boyfriend(who I was living with) and my mom’s cousin and his family(thankfully my 2nd cousins were both around my age and they’re a riot to hang out with). I went from having a pretty vibrant social life in Rochester, to not much of a social life at all, but I still wasn’t writing. My excuse being that I started at a computer screen all day doing data entry for a customs broker and I didn’t want to come home and stare at a screen again. Staring at the TV screen and watching Netflix was just fine though…
As a larger lady, I’ve always had a love/hate relationship with foods, and let’s be honest it was always more love. In an effort to consume less and consume better I found myself often recipe searching and getting a little innovative with different things. “I could share this with people….” I thought to myself. I know there are tons of people out there just like me with weight issues, body image issues but who also just love good eats, I’m working on finding the balance.
So begins my journey. My friend and I just signed up for gym memberships and are holding each other accountable. So far so good, except for a twisted ankle right before leaving for the gym(damn you laundry and stairs!) and an “It’s my birthday and I’m sad” excuse, we’ve been making it to all out planned workouts. We’ve even attended a few classes, and I have a confession: I LOVE ZUMBA. Have you ever tried it? It’s amazing. So, follow along and share in my journey.